I have just a few days left in Italy before I fly back to London and meet up with the World of Difference group and we head to Kenya together for 17 days.
My Eat, Pray, Love journey continues… I’ve eaten more carbs than I’ve had in a very long time. Somehow all my pants are baggy. It must be the miles I’ve walked in these Tuscan towns.
I’ve prayed. I’ve loved…in new ways, yet ways that feel familiar to my soul.I meditated and did yoga at the Ananda meditation and yoga retreat center just outside of Assisi. I got in touch with a more expansive definition of “God,” one that moves a deep part of my soul and one that is not confined or defined by traditional religion. This was an unexpected blessing from this trip and one that is just starting to unfold. And then I would come out of that reality and into the reality of the very bland vegetarian food at the retreat and I kept craving avacados and bacon. wth? Then I would be mesmerized at the beauty that surrounded me in this ancient land. And so that balance continued… At the retreat they had a “purification” ceremony. You wrote down what you wanted to release, like a habit or belief. Then there was a process in which someone else acted as a channel of God to purify you from what you wrote down.Hmmm, this was not part of the plan. Needless to say, I was REALLY resistant to this process. I won’t go into the details of the ceremony to respect the sacred nature of it, but I was not getting into it.I was SO resistant to this process. I almost walked out of the room.
I thought “how can someone else do this for me? What makes the person so special that they act as “God”? The questions did not stop until I decided to stop the useless questioning.