[Sunday Love Letter – When the World Feels Hopeless and I Feel Helpless]
You can listen to the audio below. You can download the clearing loops I use in this + some extras here: https://soundcloud.com/angella-johnson-2/clearing-loop-for-hopelessness-into-possibility.
Yesterday, a friend of mine posted about her feeling about the racism that is staring us in the face in the white supremacist rally in Virginia in the US.
I have not been able to get this off my mind, but most importantly, how I responded to her post. I told her that I didn’t know the words to say.
I recently experienced a very challenging thing personally – something I’m sure I’ll talk about in the future, just not right now.
One of the hardest things during this deep time of healing was the people who didn’t say anything. They didn’t acknowledge my pain. They stayed silent.
The reasons I heard were things like:
“I don’t know what to say and what if I say the wrong thing?”
“You’re strong Angella, you’ll be fine.”
“What is there to say, this happens all of the time, you’ll be okay.”
But the silence was the thing that hurt the most.
I did this same thing to my friend. I told myself that I didn’t know what to say.
But the truth is, I did know what to say, I was just too scared to say it.
One of my BIGGEST pet peeves in relationships is if you don’t speak up, it’s not a friendship or relationship that I’ll invest my time in.
Yet in the face of the racism that is so blatant in this country (and the world) right now, what have I been saying? What can I say as a white person of privilege?
This is actually not a post about white privilege, racism, and the other atrocities we have in our world. Yet, it sort of is.
This is about what to say and what to do, especially when you are empathic and can easily get sucked into the vortex of hopelessness, shame, and pain.
I called a friend in tears today because I was so IN the heartache and disgust of what I’m seeing people choose in the world – everything from racism to sex trafficking to abuse to addiction.
I couldn’t think of any questions to shift the energy so I could choose to create a change. I was being at the effect of these things and not being the AFFECT (the influencing and creating the change).
If you can relate to any of this, a little or a lot, here are some tools to support you: (the audio link to this is at the bottom)
- Truth, how much of the pain you are feeling is yours? Everything that is, will you return to send x a godzillion and destroy and uncreate it. POD POC
(Despite was I was told for years from my spiritual communities, you CANNOT heal the world by running it’s shame and pain through yourself and through your body. But what you can do is CHANGE the energy by acknowledging it, expanding YOUR energy to be bigger than the challenge, then choosing what you are going to BE and do from that expanded place. This way you are consciously choosing vs reacting.)
- What am I aware of here that if I were to acknowledge it, would change everything?
Everything that is x a godzillion, will you destroy and uncreate it please?
- What energy, space, and consciousness, can my body and I BE to be aware of and BE the space of what’s possible here?
Everything that doesn’t allow that, destroy and uncreate it all please.
- Every lifetime I’ve been the abuser and I’m punishing myself in this lifetime, destroy and uncreate it all.
All oaths and vows you made to NEVER do that again, declare them complete now. All of the karmic debt you’ve made real in this lifetime, will you destroy and uncreate it all now please? POD POC
- Everywhere you are judging yourself for being racist and abusive, will you destroy and uncreate it all now please? POD POC
- What energy, space, and consciousness can my body and I BE to not be at the effect of the world, but to AFFECT the world to BE the space of magic and possibilities?
Anything that doesn’t allow that, will you destroy and uncreate it all now please. POD POC.
- Truth, is the hopelessness I perceive actually my awareness that something else is entirely possible?
Everywhere I’ve misidentified pain, suffering, hopelessness, and shame as the awareness I truly be, I destroy and uncreate it all now. POD POC
What is POD POC? This is from Access Consciousness® and you can listen to my overview of this tool + two others here: https://soundcloud.com/angella-johnson-2/access-consciousness-training-aj
Here is the link to the tool from Access Consciousness® also at www.theclearingstatement.com.